Today I went out with some of my close friends.

Most of my friends are really, pretty. Somehow I don't really feel like I fit in with them, they're all so FLAWLESSLY pretty. Myself, I can't even compete to them. Frankly speaking, I'm one the ugliest person in their group. And most of the time they talk about boys boys boys. Everytime I bring up a subject, or tell them something. I get ignored. That really really pisses me off. No, I do not deny. Because of that, I kinda grew up to be a dumbfucking attention WHORE. I just lust for attention so much, whenever I get it I feel great. Its like a DRUG. When I have no attention I feel like nothing.

I only can get their attention when they're alone. IMing doesn't work. I've tried. >>

I hanged out with my other friend, who's much of a dog lover and a basketball freak. I managed to get pretty much of her attention.

Ah, as well for the rest. :l
Let me tell you a story when I was in the restaurant. >>

I told them I was gonna get a burger.
Nobody listened.
So I dragged my other dog lover friend along to queue up with me.
Then another person came. A friend.
She went next to my other friend and started ordering stuff also.
Then the orders started piling up.

I got my burger and just sat down.
I saw another close friend with her boyfriend.
Waved to her, she waved back.
When I tried to ask her something.
She just looked at me like she was kinda disgusted, don't know why. Cause maybe I was scarfing into a burger? Then she talked to my other friend without saying a word.

Then she just went off with her boyfriend.
When she came back to ask something.
She didn't even glance at me.

I called my mom and left with just a " I'm going with my mom. "

I lied, I walked upstairs to the bookstore and just sat alone browsing through books.

I feel like a stupid idiot overcome by emotions now. God.